From My Perspective

If I could sit in a crowded place, the mall for example, and watch people all day without them knowing it, I totally would. For someone that doesn’t like to interact with strangers or people in general, if I can help it, I do find them extremely interesting. They especially are when they don’t know that they are being watched. Everyone acts differently when they feel like they are not being observed.   Even when they know I am standing there watching they are still interesting to me. I like to study people and see their little quirks. For example, there is a young lady that I work with that I like to watch. To be honest, she didn’t make a very good first impression with me. She seemed a little chaotic and high strung for my taste. Now that I am getting to know her a little better, I like her. She seems to be a kind-hearted person who craves girl time. In fact, I overheard her speaking of this the other day. She was talking about how she has to have a girlfriend to talk to.

It has been a few months since I have written on this blog, so it's time for an update. I took a break from this blog to focus on my YouTube channel. I had this dream of recording myself practicing magick, pulling tarot cards, and performing general witchy tasks. I didn't realize how much went into growing a YouTube channel. It's insane! I still think it is an awesome idea. Unfortunately, I had to return to work a regular job and now there is no way I would have enough time to keep up with a regular filming schedule. They say in order to grow an audience, you have to post on the same days every week. While working in the food industry, though, I never have a regular schedule. I don't like to do things if I can't do them exceptionally well, so I will put this idea on the back burner for now. I can, however, always find time to write. Right now, I am waiting for my husband to get off of work, sitting in a back booth of the restaurant, writing this on my phone. So mu

Samhain. The Witch’s New Year. Halloween.   I am a Wiccan and I celebrate Halloween, in some ways, a little differently.   The traditional activities of dressing up, trick-or-treating, costume parties, and haunted houses are still celebrated. In fact, I went to a haunted house that was set up in the town library just the other night. I read an article in our local newspaper that said that grown ups are usually surprised as to how scared they actually were when they came out because they assumed it would be geared more towards children. They warned that you needed to know exactly what your child could handle. I went to a haunted house when I was younger at Six Flags that scared me a little more than this one did. However, this one had a carnival room which was, of course, filled with clowns. I mainly stared at the floor, letting my husband guide me through. The one thing that did scare me a lot was a girl coming out of a well with long black hair (like the girl from the Ring

Rereading the first entry in my journal reminds me that I have been transformed and that the process is never quite complete.   I wrote of how my relationship with other women had changed. When I was younger, I felt as if I could not trust another female. There was an air of competition ever present . It seems a bit immature in hindsight but then again, I suppose that it can still be true even among adults. We want to be the prettiest, the skinniest (or have the largest derriere), the most intelligent, or be the most successful. We see another woman thriving in their lives and get jealous that we don’t have what she has.   But thankfully my view has changed. I see another woman and I don’t want to be her. I want to lift her up. I want to encourage her when she feels less than. I want to be her biggest cheerleader. I want to praise her when she is doing well. I want to share her successes and shout, “look at what my sister has accomplished! Isn’t she amazing?!?”   Of cou